More than expected

I didnt think much of what I was going to do for this year. I did not have any plans for myself of how I was going to grow as a person. I began this year thinking about my academics and how to perform better in them. I still care about academics and how I am going to perform for my career life. In preparation with my career life, I have done some searches on jobs that are available in the Sacramento area, so that I would be able to work there during the summer. I have also gathered more and more thoughts about how looks matter in not only the career field, but also public and social life. I have become pensive about looks and considered taking actions on it, which I have not taken seriously before.
I bought a few makeup (mascara, eyeliner) products with a goal of knowing how to apply it by this summer. I begin to feel that although I may not wear it often, I should at least know how to apply it on myself. I have had some friends put makeup on me, but it is usually what they think will fit me. Some of them have applied makeup on me that fits me and some have not. Most people my age know how to apply makeup on, yet I have little to no knowledge of how to apply makeup. In addition, I have also learned that knowing how to apply makeup and wearing it is beneficial because it can help protect my skin. It is also a way for me to understand my skin and colors as it fits me as a person.
I have also cared about the health of my eyes. I have wanted sunglasses for a long time, but could not buy the ones in stores because I would not be able to wear them when I am driving. Then, I thought of the idea of getting prescribed sunglasses. Not only could I wear them when I am driving, but they when I walk around areas where sun is unavoidable. I will no longer have to squint my eyes when the sun overpowers my view. Also, I will have another glasses to wear instead of my regular one. I am really excited to receive a new pair of glasses for a different use. It seems that I have become more sensitive about my looks and wanting to improve them to be more accepted and liked in society.

Missing out on Sweden

Today I woke up early to turn in the withdrawal for Sweden summer study abroad program. I am bummed that I missed out on going to it this summer, especially because of finances. I should have prepared more for it financially. It would have definitely been a experience that would open up my mind. I was also interested in taking women's studies classes there, as well as the history courses. I think it is one of the biggest regrets that I would not be going there for the summer. It absolutely fascinated me when I was learning about its culture. Also, Swedish found like a very cool language to learn, especially since around 10 million? people know the language. I wanted to see if what I have learned was real or more intently I wanted to experience it, rather than read or ponder about it. So, what now since I have turn in the application? I think that I should work on future travel plans by earning money and planning further ahead. Since I will not go study abroad in Sweden, there is always the possibility of exploring on my own with the purpose of leisure and learning through experience.

Tomorrow is the beginning of Finals!

Today was our last day of class. It was mainly a reviewful day. I was tired though because I did not get much sleep. After my third class of the day, I immediately went home and took a two hour nap. I woke up when my roommate came in from finishing her classes. I have to finish my history study guide, so that I will be able to study all day tomorrow and review for Chinese. Luckily, I do not have a final tomorrow. But, I do feel stressed that I have two finals that are closely scheduled like back to back on Wednesay. And, after finals I will be working on some projects that I been wanting to start on for a while. Finals seem to be a short time from now since it is so close, but preparing and studying for it takes a while. The good thing about finishing early is thart on Thursday I will be heading to LA! I am so excited!