Monday, December 28, 2015

2015 in Review

I'd like to start off by thanking everyone who spent time with me this year, who spent time asking me how my days was or even shared a few conversations with me, and/or have done something for me because you all played a part in making my year better. I'm especially thankful for those several people who gave me presents for my birthday and Christmas and I barely hanged out with them or talked to them. Here's to more adventures and getting to knowing you all more.

"Really? You don't seem like a shy person to me."

"You know what? You are one of those who don't like coming to work not because you don't mind what you are doing, but because you wish you were doing bigger and better things, but you aren't."

"This means war"

"You are like the most prepared person ever."

"You know how I can tell that you were going to give me something?...You asked me if I like it, which is like a 90% chance you''ll give it to me."

"They may have went to Berkeley and Stanford and have these professions, but I have a much bigger heart than them."

Sorry if these quotes weren't exactly word for word, but they were very close to what I remember people saying.

The only thing that I managed to do this year that I been wanting to do for a while was go to San Luis Obispo. I been there before, but I wanted to go back. As part of my trip, I visited Morro Bay, which was a nice, small town. I stopped by Hearst Castle, which I loved because of the story and the artifacts you'll spot there and nowhere else. Due to my pinterest activity, I discovered Crystal Hermitage and I'm glad I made the visit there because its beautiful. Oh wait, I also got to go to Disneyland and Knott's Berry Farm, which was a cool experience. I went to my first lighthouse this year in Point Reyes and hope to go to more in the future. Maybe I will go to New York next year? It's been in the talks for a while now. Chicago and New Orleans are still on my list and will forever be until I make the trip. I can't forget about Italy though. I realized that I haven't bothered planning for Italy because I'm took broke. But, then, I realized I should plan early, so I know what to save up for.  It gets me excited even though it might be false hope and will strengthen my travel bug.

I guess the reason why I didn't travel so much this year was because I tried so much to change my situation so that I won't be lazy and to make myself do more with my life. But, as always, life doesn't turn out in my favor. Just because I changed a thing or two, it doesn't guarantee another. That's something I have to continually remind myself because that's a hard lesson for me to accept.

I think one of the most unexpected ways I changed this year was my thoughts of dogs. Before Jack came along, I would be afraid to go near most dogs. I have 2 dogs before Jack, but they are outside dogs and more unpredictable and not trained, so that's why I'm not around them much. But, Jack helped changed me thoughts of most dogs. I check out every dog that I see and think of how precious the dog is instead of fearing the dog.

I don't watch much of anything anymore, but this year I tried to incorporate more shows into my life. One of them was watching an old show from childhood, which was Ally McBeal. I mostly wanted to watch is because I remember Robert Downey Jr. in it and wanted to know how he was a part of the show. The show didn't seem appealing to me in the beginning, but as I kept on watching it I liked it. One of my favorite lines from the show was from John Cage (Peter MacNicol)- If you think back and replay your year and if it doesn't bring you tears either of joy or sadness consider it wasted. I really liked that quote. I liked it because it accepts sadness and negativity, which is often not mentioned as something that should be part of your experiences. But, there are dark times in people lives even though they don't want to mention it.

I'm not the most selfless person out there. But, this year, I really noticed the selflessness of some friends. This year, I realized that some people had a bigger heart than I realized. They watch out for others and think about others. They buy food for their friends and worry if they ate or not. Those friends have taught me to do more things for others and to put others first in more circumstances. I'm not a greedy person, but I'd say independent and usually only take care of myself and my own needs. Well, I guess that means greedy in my time and my efforts. I've learned to also think more about others and how I can help them. It meant that I wanted to do more for my friends because I wanted them to know how much I appreciate them. And, I learned the values of others and to appreciate what you have in friends and other things.

This year past by so quickly, it's kind of like a blur for me. I would like to say it's complete for me because so many good things happen and I'm surrounded by wonderful people. But, I can't just because there's goals I haven't completed and I feel disappointed at myself a lot of the time. I just can't until I get what I been wanting for years.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Lessons I've Learned

I felt that I've learned a lot in my life. I've learned them at different points in my life. The lessons I've learned have taught me to be more accepting of others and my unhappy situations. 

1. There will be times when you have to do things how other people do it, which may be different from how you do it.

2. You might work really hard, but the results you want aren't always guaranteed.

3. No matter how educated or more well off financially a person is it doesn't mean that person is perfect or better than you.

4. If you wait for others to sign up or do something with you there's a possibility it won't ever happen. Instead of waiting, you should make deadlines and see if others can meet it.

5. There's always someone watching or observing even if it doesn't seem like anyone is paying attention. This applies to what you do in social media, work, school, or even the mall, especially if you have a regular routine.

6. You will feel happy or special when someone mentions or remember something that is not mentioned often.

7. No matter how good your memory was in the past you can't remember everything.

8. There will be things that you will never get tired of, while there will be things you will be tired of. Moreover, people are happy doing the same things over and over because that's what makes them happy. While others crave something new and want adventure and spice.

9. Don't worry about not being the fastest, smartest, or the slowest because eventually everyone will catch up and it's all about taking the next step and getting things done right.

10. Some things won't ever be finished or won't ever happen.

11. Motivation comes in many different ways. Since every person is different in experiences and thoughts each person is encouraged by something different be it fear, challenges, or even discouragement. It's all about perception.

I wanted to list 21 or 25 lessons. but I couldn't think of anymore lessons. But, I will settle for 11.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Birthday 2015

I recently turned a year older and I still find it hard to believe. I don't want to believe it. I wished I had a more fulfilling and successful life, but sometimes that's not how life plays out. But, I can say that celebrating my birthday this year exceeded my expectations. I was able to hang out with my friends and family and go to places I like.

I first celebrated my birthday with my long time elementary school friends, Chen and Shan. I always enjoy catching up with the girls and eating with them, so it was fun.

The next day was my actual birthday and I celebrated it with my family. We began the day with dim sum at King Palace. Next, we went home and had cake and took some pictures. Even though it was November, I didn't feel all that cold that day and wore a dress.

After eating cake, we played some board games (Scattergories, Sequence, Guillotine). After playing some games and relaxing for a bit, we headed out to Paesanos to eat dinner. Afterwards, we watched The Maze Runner: Scorch Trials. I found myself really liking that movie, so that was a good thing.

The next day, I celebrated my birthday with more of my friends from high school and work. It was nice seeing people I don't see too often and watching them eat dim sum. However, I didn't like that we all didn't get to sit in the same table. Next time around, I will make sure everyone is in the same table and that I can see everyone, which means smaller gatherings.

I took a picture of all my friends that I invited to dim sum. I informed my guests they could dress up or not, but I'm still going to take pictures with them.

Even though a good amount of my friend were able to make it I still hope some others could have attended as well because I don't see them too often. But, it was very fun.

We finished eating dim sum around 1 or 2 and afterwards a few of my friends wanted to do something afterwards. We decided to change and then meet up to go to Downtown. Our first stop was Coinop, which was pretty cool since I always like playing the games there. Secondly, we walked over to the Ice skating rink to go ice skating. My friend, Ricardo didn't want to go ice skating, which surprised us since he didn't mention he didn't want to earlier when were discussing it. Nonetheless, he still ended up purchasing tickets to go ice skating. I'm glad he had the experience although he didn't originally intend on doing it. 

While heading back home after ice skating, Eric mentioned that he was going to eat pho, which made me crave it. And, it led to me and Kristine wanting to eat some pho. So, in the end we all ended up going to Pho Saigon to eat some pho. But, the funny thing is none of us ordered pho at the restaurant.

At the restaurant, I was able to catch up with the group and Snowbee was mentioned in one of our conversations. Both Ricardo and Eric never tried it, so me and Kristine tried to explain it because we love honey toast. Somehow, we all ended up going to Snobee afterwards. Eric ordered a drink and had the honey toast, but didn't like dessert. I wished I would have known that, but he didn't object to it when we described it. But, Ricardo loved it, which was good.

While I was waiting for the food at Snowbee, I crashed. I didn't expect to, but my body realized how tired I was when I leaned back on the comfy chairs, so I took a few minutes rest while my friends played Connect 4 and caught up with one another. I was also surprised when Eric thanked us for making him sleepy and for the fun we had that night.

Snowbee was the last stop that night before heading home. But, wait, I actually had to go to work right after Snowbee, but I would say I would still have done the whole day over again because it was fun.

I'm glad that I took pictures with everyone who attended my birthday celebration. It's always important to remember good moments like these. It's definitely one of the highlights of this year.