Sunday, August 30, 2015

Getting things off my mind

The beginning of this month started off pretty rough. So much happened, but I'm only going to detail a few aspects of it.

First off, I finished watching a television series that's posted on Netflix called "Ally McBeal". It was sad for me because I rarely watch any t.v. show on actual television or on my computer. Not only that, but also when I grow attached to something and its ending then there's nothing else to look forward to down the road. That's why I try not to finish any series. I'm pretty sure one of the reasons why it sadden me was that its second to last episode was highly depressing to me. It was the episode where the lady wants to file for a divorce, but her original ego doesn't want a divorce. I find it sad because the ending of that episode was sad. Then, after that comes the series finale. Ally leaves the law firm and doesn't end up with any guy at all, not even Larry or Billy, both of whom she loved very much and lost.

Small bumps started to appear on my arm again, but luckily it looks like its going away again. Hope it doesn't appear back again. My eczema on my hand hasn't appeared for a few months. Well, there are a few bumps here and there, but no where near how bad it was last year. Last year, my eczema was so bad that my right hand was bright pink and bumpy. It was very hard not to want to scratch it. When I did scratch it felt incredibly good for the first few minutes and I immediately regretted again afterwards.

I originally planned for a Lake Tahoe trip overnight on August 14th, but I decided to cancel it. The timing wasn't right :(. I been wanting to go again, so I can enjoy ice cream there and play on the beach, but haven't been back this summer.

I don't know why, but I felt that there may not have been a solution to my problem, but at least I can try to escape, which led me to make some solo trips. I made trips to the Arboretum in Davis, Stone Lake National Wildlife Refuge, and Sly Park.

I haven't been to the Arboretum in a while, so it felt nice to walking around and embrace the beauty, wildlife and nature of the Arboretum. While I was walking, I noticed a young boy feed the ducks and I later walked back there and I couldn't believe my eyes. I saw two rats (one black & one grey), a bird, and ducks all together in the same place. I thought it was a unique sighting. I'm pretty the rats noticed me, but they continued eating or looking for food and didn't run away. I didn't take closer photos because I was scared of going any closer to the rats.

The next day, I made a trip to Stone Lake National Wildlife Refuge. I never heard of the place before and discovered it through surfing Yelp. When I wandered around, I was the only one around, so I felt spooky some of the time, especially when I heard hooting and when rabbits ran around. Every time I turned around, there was another rabbit. I also saw a lizard. I also noticed a bird with red spots on both sides. I'm sure there's other bugs and animals there. It was so tranquil there and pretty.

 The last trip I made was to Sly Park. I originally tried to go to Bridal Veils Falls, but I couldn't find it, so I settled for Sly Park. Sly Park was very nice. I loved that you had to past tall trees before you ended up at the beach. I loved the trees too. If only I was able to stay there longer than 15 minutes :(.

I started school last week and I signed up for 3 courses. They seem alright right now, but I'm sure it will be pretty intense soon. Even though, I already have a part time job, volunteer, and going to school my mom wants me to get another job, but I don't think I should. I feel that I already have a lot that I commit to. Not to mention, I still wished I had a full time job. I applied for over 30 last week, so I guess I'm trying my luck with those :/.